The house was built in1915.
It is a bit battered in places.
The basement door opens out to a small sitting area rimmed on two sides
by flower gardens.
The third side is open to the side yard.
The elderly lady, who previous owned this home,
laid outdoor carpet over bare ground
and that was her patio.
It has been ours also as we fixed up the house in Cinci
so we could sell it,
maintained the campground place at the lake,
and remodeled inside this house.
I dislike the carpeted bare ground area intensely.
But we ponder how much to do to fix it,
because we don't know
how much longer we will be here
whether we will sell this place or rent it.
We struggle with what to do next,
waiting for that house
that calls our name
and frankly not finding it
this house has witnessed me struggle
these past four years.
I've dealt with:
living separately from my husband;
being recalled to my former job
only to find the responsibilities different and tougher;
taking care of my ailing dad,
then my dying dad,
then his 'estate';
mourning over his death
struggling with living without him.
These are just some of the obstacles I've faced
in just four years.
Of course, always hovering in the background is the chronic illness,
which some don't believe exists: Fibromyalgia.
So now I plant flowers,
sort through boxes,
move stuff here then move it there,
"When Lord, when does my life settle down?"
But as I do this, I find plenty of moments to smilingly embrace,
cherish, and remember.
These moments put in perspective the ones I can't "get my arms around."
Please understand, I'm not depressed.
With that I give you this prayer by Stormie Omartian,
which actually led to me 'voicing' all of the above.
"Embracing the Moment"
Lord, Help me to embrace the moments of my life
that are hard to get my arms around.
Enable my eyes to see You in them.
Help me to always acknowledge the abundance
of Your goodness to me.
I lift to You the deepest struggles in my life.
I trust You to open my eyes to see
all You have for me in them.
Reveal to me the fullness of it all.
Thank You that I can be filled with the joy of Your presence
in every step I take,
because You have given me
I need for whatever step I am on.
In the day when I cried out, You answered me,
and made my bold with strength in my soul.
Blessings to you all as you begin the week.