adapting

adapting

changing

shifting

clothes, furniture, ideas, attitudes

rearranging

making room for each other

as we become a couple again

daily

instead of on weekends

(sometimes it was every other weekend)

we lived alone before we lived together

and we were both good at being alone

i believe wholeheartedly

that alone need not be lonely

i learned after my divorce

that only when i become comfortable

 being with myself

 can  i truly be comfortable with others

some days i'm more comfortable with me than other days

i still have lots to learn

but i'd rather be alone with no one else in the house

than live with someone and still feel alone

"i've been there, done that"

i am missing him

he's back in cinci consulting for his old company

and checking on the house--

 the first open house looms ahead this weekend

normally he has to wear headphones

for football games

for tv---period

you see, he likes sound

and

i have sound overload all day long

so

 i crave quiet in the evenings

and

some on weekends

tuesday night

 he would not have had to wear head phones

for i put away the lessons

and the work to be graded

curled up in his spot on the couch

with his warm 'throw blanket'

two cats

 and some cookies

and let the ohio state/arkansas game

blare throughout the house

i stayed up and watched

the WHOLE game

four hours of sleep was the result

but ---

ohio state beat an sec team

broke a record

that needed breaking 

i'm glad i sacrificed sleep

to see 

the interception that sealed the game

and

coach tresler dodge the gatorade

this house is tiny

only one comfortable spot for watching tv

it's the same comfortable spot for grading

therefore

we're

adapting

changing

shifting---

love makes that possible

love makes it worthwhile

the house feels empty without him

good--it should

"Finally, all [of you] should be of one and the same mind (united in spirit),

sympathizing [with one another],

loving [each other]as brethren [of one household],

compassionate and courteous (tenderhearted and humble)."

I Peter 3:8

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