Sunday, October 5, 2014

Day Five of 31 Days of Life: Stuck

I'm not sure why I chose this picture; I was scrolling through my photos, saw this, and clicked on it.
I am in the midst of a stuck day.  We had two couples over for dinner last night and I prepared all day for it.  I did not become stressed out and was done (except for hubby grilling steaks) and had snacks  out 15 minutes before they were due to arrive.  Before Abilify was added  to my daily meds, I could  not focus continually in a day and wasted a lot of time, energy, and sometimes tears. Now a little green pill helps me focus and not stress out.  Wonderful!
However, it does not take away the effects of fibromyalgia and that is what has me stuck today.  I 'm paying for not sleeping/resting all day yesterday like I usually do on Saturdays.  I put in 12 hour work days as a high school English teacher on 5-6 hours of sleep per night, so Saturday becomes my 'stuck' in pay up day---the day when chronic illness sufferers pay for the previous days of work and/or fun.  It's certainly a part of fibromyalgia as I witnessed with my own mother.  She taught me to work in the pay-up days so that I could have all the other days.  It does work, but that doesn't make it desirable.  In fact, it's sometimes a day of combating negative feelings and heart-felt wishes for being 'normal'.
Today I am fighting frustration because there is so much still to do before school begins again tomorrow and I have no energy.  I am stuck.  (I will go  take a nap so that I will have some energy to do other stuff the rest of the day.)  Oh, by the way, it was worth it!
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  1. Well---we all get stuck at times --even without having any physical problems. I find myself getting much more TIRED these days than I did a few years ago... Dang--this getting old stuff is for the birds... I used to have boo-koos of energy --and now, it disappears so quickly.

    But--I'm proud of you for what you did yesterday. Even if you are paying for it today, I'm sure it was lots of fun showing off your home to friends and having a great dinner for them... They are lucky to have you as a good friend....

    Get some REST.

  2. That's a great picture, Beth. Hope you are feeling a bit more rested as you begin your week.

  3. Hope this finds you feeling renewed. It's so frustrating to want to do things and not have sufficient energy to do them.


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